Okay...I have completely lost it...

I got to see Jeff today, and this evening I could not stop wanting to cry. I've seriously lost my mind. It's been a bad day, piled on top of many other bad days. The only good parts are when i get to be with him, and in his arms.

Mom and I went down to the storage unit today to figure out what we wanted to keep of our respective items, and found that the decision was already made for us. Almost every single item in the unit was covered with mold or rust. For those who consider renting a storage unit, I highly recommend staying away from Quality Care Lawn Maintaince and storage. And not only was there abundance of rust and mold, there was a dead rat in there!!!!!! Of course, when we brought this issue to the attention of the staff, they blamed us! For one, not renting a climate controlled unit, and for two not having something in there to absorb the humidity and heat. They said they told us that before, but trust me, I heard nothing about how we were going to have to spend more then 1oo dollars a month to rent the unit and pay to protect the stuff inside on top of that. (which I thought that was why I was paying so much to have my stuff there in the first place) Once we realized that we were having to pull everything out so we could put all the ruined items on one side, and the few things that could be salvaged on the other, I called Jeff and asked him if he could help us do it. He was sooo sweet and came over to help us move the heavy things around, because my back was starting to hurt. It didn't take very long to do that with his help. I love that man! He is so good to me.

After that, he went home to eat and relax, and we ran errands. done that, came home, did a few things, and then finally got to head over to Jeff's. Where i promptly lost my mind.

We were cuddling, and I was kissing him while we watched part of the commentary on the house of the dead movie. All of a sudden I thought about how he wasn't going to be in this state in less then two weeks to be able to kiss and touch on a daily basis and I had tears wanting to well over. I went to the bathroom and composed myself while he was unaware watching the movie. (he is under enough stress without having to think about his crazy crying girlfriend, i thought). I had thought I was back under control, but i did end up starting to tear up while we were cuddling and he noticed. and then I failed once more as a girlfriend, not asking about how his appointment went today. This is why I didn't ask: we were at Kirks and Marsha's for a few minutes earlier, and he commented on how he had to make that important call tomorrow, and so I assumed that he didn't go to the appointment or talk to them today. So when i didn't ask, he accused me of not caring. He never did tell me how it went. I really care, but now i have to prove it once more. I care about everything that happens to him or affects him. I love that man with all of my heart soul, mind and body! Things will be turn out alright, but it's just hard..

My head hurts. It's been hurting all day, more and more. My headache has a headache.

I am watching full house, and not wanting to go to bed. I don't know why I am adverse to going to sleep lately.. I am tired, sleep would do me well. Jesse proposed to Rebbecca in Nevada (on one knee!), and then Rebbecca said 'I don't'. Now they are arguing about there differences and how she hurt Jesse, moving too fast... yadayada...The actress who played her was very pretty.