I hope you feel special anyway..

For once, my myspace readers get first crack at reading a blog entry, because I can't sign into my regular blog/spicepad/or Fubar on Kirkwood's campus computers. (Spicepad and Fubar are considered 'adult' websites, and I can't for the life of me remember my blog address, let alone my name/password!!! Thank goodness for bookmarks!!

Now to think of something worth your while in reading...

I'm sitting (really standing, because they think making us stand at hallway terminals will push traffic along or something... uhuh, sure.. We are the technology generation, we'll get our fix one way or another, am I right??)...

Anyway, before I so rudely interrupted myself, I was saying that I am wasting some time between classes with no studies that have to be done for the next class. Thank Goodness again, because I don't have the attention span today for it. So I thought I would blog some mindless drivel for you to glance at, maybe read. Although, pointing at your screen and laughing would be understandable as well...

I do know that you, dear reader, are most likely on the edge of your seats, wondering how this friendship with Jimmy (James in previous entries), is turning out. Well, let me fill you in through last night okay?

Do you have your popcorn? Sitting comfortably in your seat, with a nice glass of whatever is your guilty pleasure? Okay. Here you go:

He called me on my way home from work last night, and we made plans to go for another walk around the pond, after I did a few things around the house, and changed out of my work clothes. He came by around nine, and after the puppy got HER fill of attention, we were off. (You know, she thinks that everyone who comes to the house, come to see her.. why else would they be there?)

We wandered down there, and ended up sitting around the pond and talking. Then we would wonder around the path, and sit down again, and talk some more. I think my favorite part of the walk was when we were sitting in the shelter right by the pond, talking. He, somehow, can get me to tell him stuff that I don't tell ANYONE else. It's a gift, I think. However, a gift that I will have to keep a watch on, you know?

We talked about bunches of different things, about his trip he's planning on going to Honduras in about six months, about previous girlfriends/boyfriends(me/him respectively lol!)..and so much more.

It was wonderful. The night was warm, the skies were kind of cloudy, the kind of cloudy that it reflects the streetlamp light back down, and the pond's fountains were relaxing in the splashing of the water. He is a great listener and talker, and he seems geniuinely interested in me... What a wonderful friend he is!

Don't shake your head and laugh at me!! NOT a date, NOT a potential boyfriend in the making.. FRIEND's! Neither one of us are at a place where we want to date, and we are perfectly content in being friends, and hanging out.

So, dear reader, there is your dose of moi for now.. What about you?

What's your favorite websites to roam?

Are you one of those technological geeks that will get your 'fix' one way or another?

What kind of popcorn do you like? What's YOUR guilty pleasure? (Drinks, not THAT! Geez.. get your mind out of the gutter already!!)

Go ahead, you know you want to... What's your opinion on this whole friendship thing? Do you think I am full of B.S.? (Because I'm not, I am being fully honest with you about this, my dear readers!)

Oh yeah, if you are one of my myspace readers.. DO YOU feel special because you get first crack at reading and commenting on this?

Wow...

Got together with Jimmy again last night.. and wow.. (BTW, you might shake your head at me, but this wasn't a date either!)

He came over and helped me do a few things for my mother that would've taken me a LONG time to do, and then we went for another walk around the pond... He already knows more things about me that I usually keep under wraps than what Jeff (or anyone else) got out of me....

We went over to Target for a few drinks, but I got a bag of Dark Milky Ways instead..... YUM.. We looked at a few movies, but neither one of us really like shopping anymore. The dungeon has cured us of that.

Then, we went back to his Aunt's house, and I showed him the fall of the Firefly family, and what become of them. (AKA Devil's Rejects, the sequel to House of a 1000 Corpses.

We talked a lot more, and then I came home, (around three this morning.. jeez.) I'm not used to be up past ten, it's taking a toll on me!!

Bummer, that I left my phone there though :( I had to borrow my brother's alarm clock so that I could get up in time for work this morning. You might be wondering what a phone and an alarm clock have to to do with each other? Even if you aren't, I'll tell you anyway!! :D

I HATE lots of clutter, so I combine things and prune down as much as possible.. So, I got rid of my alarm clock, and I use my phone for getting up in the morning. It has lots of alarm clocks I can set, and it is annoying enough to get up to..

I must be off now, dear reader, and take my shower. I've only fifty minutes to get to work...

Updated as promised...

I'm sure you all were on the edges of your seats, overflowing with anticipation on how last night went... so here it goes:

Keep in mind.. this wasn't a date!!! LOL

We both worked 10-7 yesterday, and decided to leave his bike there and take my car. (He doesn't drive.) He was a good sport and came home with me so that I could take the puppy out and make sure all was well.

Then we were off. We decided to walk on the bike path near the mall that goes around a pond. (The Coral-Ridge Mall is only a few blocks away from my house.)

We chatted the whole time that we were walking, and rested on a downed tree for a few minutes. We talked about so many things! It was nice to have someone talk with me and he seems really interested in what I want to say. He doesn't interrupt me or make some lame and stupid sentence back at me when he doesn't catch something I say.

We sat on the grass and just talked for at least an hour or two. He's been through so much, it's amazing that he's still standing and pushing ahead.

I was starting to get famished, so we decided to head to his Aunt's house, where he is staying until he can once more get his own place. (He didn't cause his uproot-ment from his previous apartment. I got the impression that he can't wait to have the money to once more be on his own.)

He fixed me a really good loose meat roast sandwich, and then we continued to get better acquainted. After awhile, I introduced him to the House of 1000 Corpses and the Firefly family that resided there. We talked some more after that, and didn't run out of anything to say! The only reason the night ended was because it was getting late, and I was falling asleep. I think it was a little near three this morning when I fell into bed this morning.

The last thing I was aware of was his text: "Good night dalaga." He knows Filipino, he studied abroad in high school I think it was. He's called me maganda dalaga before, which is 'pretty lady'. I think it's rather sexy, knowing another language.


But I digress. It wasn't a date, but it was a wonderful time, I got out of the house and rather enjoyed myself.

.......................
...it...I was... AUUUGHHH! I forgot just what the heck I was going to say next, but I do know that I have accounting homework due tomorrow, so I must go do that now.

Comments are always welcome, I'd love to hear what you have to say, as always!!

Peace.

It's decided...

You've all convinced me.. The consensus is that it's safe as long as I tell him that I am only interested in being 'just friends'.

I think it's more like a walk through the park, however. I am flat broke, so the cup of coffee/tea idea got nixed, and changed to a walk in the Coralville Park. Then, if we have time, I shall introduce him to the wonderful horrific-ness of Devil's Rejects.

Definitely shall prove interesting, one way or another.

Hmm... it's been awhile since I've done anything with friends.. and the first time I've actually ever done anything outside of work with a co-worker. I'm usually very very introverted and home-bound. A touch of OCD, and a dash of home-bodiness thrown in for a good measure.

Updates later for you, my dear and faithful reader. For now, I must go take a shower and try to get to work on time. Back to your regularly scheduled programming after this commercial!

What do you think?

As you know, dear reader, I'm single. After a relationship that was slowly dissolving over the last several months, it ended a few weeks ago.

There's this guy at work who I think has been interested in me for awhile.. but he knew I was in a relationship. Now, that relationship is over and he asked me if I wanted to get together outside of work for a cup of coffee(for me it would be tea...coffee is BLECH!!)

I'm not ready to date yet, and I've told him this. But that isn't really a date though, right? That's something friends do all the time..


Bear with me, my lovely reader, I'm new at this sort of thing!!! I haven't been single since I was 19 or so.. almost five years of the two relationships back to back.

What do you think about this??

Yeah!

I am a bonafide college chick now!


How rockin' is that???????

It's exciting, isn't it?? I had to fight A LOT of hurdles to be able to go back, and it took nine months after I decided to go back to be able to...



WOOHOO!!

Survey

Do you hate when people smoke around you?
Yes!! Partly because if I breathe in any smoke, an asthma attack starts.. and partly because it's just a nasty habit, and I think people should keep it to themselves, not forcing me to breathe it as well.

Who was the last girl you talked to?
My mom

Who was the last guy you talked to?
James

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?
My first day back at college... woohoo!!

Recently done anything you regret?
nope.

How do you handle/let go of stress?
listen to music, blog or sleep

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
not each particular one.. but sometimes you out-grow them or move apart and make new ones...

Is there anyone holding a grudge against you?
no idea. I'd hope not.

Who was the last person to call you?
James

Who will you be with Saturday night?
my puppy

How many speeding tickets have you gotten?
one HUGE one.

What's a fact about the last boy/girl who you called?
Ummm.. I don't remember who I called last... I don't usually call out, I get calls in!

When did you last cry?
a few weeks ago

Do you plan on moving this year?
nope. *knock on wood*

What does the last message in your inbox say?
It was from Katie.. but I believe that they are called 'private messages' for a reason :P

Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
Kimmy, James, Josh, and Katie (all but James were actually messages and IM's.

Name something that made you smile today?
Getting off of work

Whats the closest thing to you thats liquid?
Tea

Last movie you saw in theaters, with who?
I gotta say 'Jumper' with Jeff

Where are you right now?
In front of my computer.. figured that would be self explanatory :P

Where is your best friend right now?
Josh is in Iraq... and Kimmy is in Washington.

Are you listening to music right now?
nope, for once...

In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
Hoodies

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
No...

Where did you last sleep other than your house?
That would be Jeff's mom's house.. a long time ago. I prefer my bed, thank you very much lol

How did you and your number 3 become friends?
When I was searching for Josh, I messaged him because he was on Josh's top friends, because I wanted to clarify that it was the right Josh.. (which I already knew.. but it seemed far to good to be true that I had finally located him!!) I wanted to make sure I wasn't hallucinating!!

What is your opinion of the last person who commented you?
Commented me where? The last comment that is memorable right now was from James, and he called me maganda. (Which, after I googled it, found out it is Filipino for beautiful.) He's cool. I am not interested in dating right now, but he seems cool.

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine

Do you miss anyone?
Yes! Josh!


What's your hair look like today?
like it usually does...

What is the background on your phone?
a picture of Midnight Binx and Cloud on the main display and a picture of Baby on the front display

What's the last thing you had to drink?
Tea

What did you do today?
Worked...went browsing in a few stores..


Do you fall for people easily?
Yep.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
No clue.

Did the one person who hurt you the most recently apologize?
Nope. That was Jeff, and I don't ever expect him to decide to talk to me again, let alone apologize to me.

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
It's their choice.. if it's for no reason, it's their stupidity to be that way.

Do you remember your dreams?
Often.. they usually are very kooky!!

ABC

♥A is for age:
24

♥B is for beverage of choice:
Sweet Ice Tea

♥C is for career right now:
Administrative Assistant in Training :P (start classes on Tuesday, YEAH!!)

♥D is for your dog's name:
Cloudy... unless she's being a really bad puppy.. then it's 'Princess Leona Cloud' at the top of my lungs lol

♥E is for essential item you use everyday:
umm...bath towels?

♥F is for favorite TV channel:
Nick At Nite

♥G is for favorite game to watch:
Football

♥H is for Hometown:
Iowa City, Iowa

♥ I is for instruments you play:
I used to play flute in elementary.. and Josh' dad tried teaching me how to play guitar a long time ago.. I wish I knew how to do that!

♥J is for favorite juice:
Pink lemonade

♥K is for whose butt you'd like to be kickin:
Hmm.. I don't know right off hand!

♥L is for last place you ate at:
Right here in front of my computer.. a few Wheat Thins and some Arizona Tea. Last regular food was in the break room at work.

♥M is for marriage:
Someday, definately!! (Well, I hope anyway!)

♥N is for your full name:
Seana Kay Pierce

♥O is for overnight hospital stay:
Umm....when i was born??? *knock on wood*

♥P is for people you were with today:
I believe this would be the ENTIRE city of Coralville and half of Iowa City lol; and then my mom after work.

♥Q is for a quote:
"Will the people in the cheaper seats clap your hands? And the rest of you, if you'll just rattle your jewelry."--John Lennon... I used it in my blog tonight, and it's one of my favorite quotes for some reason! I think it's hilarious, but can't quite put my finger on why....

♥R is for Biggest Regret:
I can't change anything in the past, so why think about it?

♥S is for relationship status:
single

♥T is for time you woke up today:
um.... 8:30 or so?

♥U is for underwear you have on now:
lacey panties

♥V is for vegetable you love:
ooohhh broccoli (with cheese!)

♥W is for worst habits:
taking really long showers, and running late ALL the time!

♥X is for x-rays you've had:
dental..

♥Y is for something yummy you ate today:
ooohhh those Reeses' mousse bars or whatever they're called.. oh, and chocolate creme pie!

♥Z is for zodiac sign:
Leo

Three Things...

Okay, so I was reading the latest 'Redbook' magazine, and came across a article with journal writing suggestions that can make you feel better and happier.

Yeah, yeah... corny...I know that's what you are thinking!

ANYWAY, one of the suggestions was to write down three things that made you happy or smile within the course of the day.

Sooo.. without further ado....my three things for the day.

The first thing that I immediately thought of.. even though it doesn't sound very nice of me...was the fact that I got to be blunt with lots of customers today, and didn't have to worry about pissing them off. WOOHOO..

This is because we've been so understaffed and overworked that we have all about reached our capacity for dealing with floods of customers with smiles on our faces while they complain about the lines and about the lack of service in the store. Today, we all just took an attitude that we are doing the best we can with the resources we have. If people can't see that, or have problems with us... well, we can't do anything more than what we are doing.

Seriously.

Today the store looked like that picture floating around the internet of the Wal-Mart in New Orleans that got ransacked during the devastation of Hurricane Katrina. (Which I just spent twenty minutes trying to find again, and it eludes me. Any other day, I see it at least once!! Go figure!) The departments were ALL trashed, the service desk was overflowing with returns, there were at least a few empty shelves in every aisle.. It's going to take all week just to get it cleaned up and stocked once more, let alone the regular things we have to do every day!

...........enough of that.. my number one item that made me smile was that I didn't have to sugarcoat and kiss up to the customers today. Rock on.

Now, for the second thing..my back didn't hurt nearly as much as it had been during the course of last week. I think it's because of my new habit of sleeping on an ice-pack.. I checked all day yesterday, and all day today, and it only hurts a bit. *knock on wood*.

Now.. for a third thing... OOOOOOHHHH yeah... I know!! I managed to arrive at work two minutes early!

......I can just picture you, dear reader, sitting there dumbstruck as you read that last sentence. 'Two minutes early?', you think to yourself, 'That's what she's so freakin' excited about?!?'.

But you don't understand! I usually am closer to 20 minutes LATE.. I don't have a good concept of actual time. Yes, I know how to read a clock.. but to me.. five minutes may seem a lot longer or shorter than to the average person. Time is a funny thing, you know...

So, there you have it dear readers. My three things for the day.
1.) Not having to sugarcoat and be forcefully polite to screaming, irate people that seem to think they can be rude as all get out to us and get away with it.

2.) My back doesn't hurt as badly as it has been, (again, knock on wood).

3.) I was on time for work, FOR ONCE! Yeah, me!

In the words of my all-time favorite activist and musician..."Will the people in the cheaper seats clap your hands? And the rest of you, if you'll just rattle your jewelry."

Oh yeah, leave some comments and love as well :P

I guess it says it all..

It's been a week since he got pissed off at me because I told him that after further consideration I was NOT returning the jewelry.

I guess it says it all. Material goods are far more important to him then to keep our friendship. And here he had been saying that I was his best friend, when we were dating (besides Kirk).

Interesting, huh?

Ah well, I wish him all the best in love and life. I'll always have a part of him in my heart, and will think of him. I can't say the same for how he feels though.

Hmmm...

I know what I want, and what I desire in the deepest reaches of my heart. However, at the present time, I have no clue if it is at all attainable.

I know, if I had an eight ball and shook it.. it would say 'Ask again later'.

It's very frustrating how timing in my life is working right now.... but I guess if it is meant to be, it will work itself out, right?

*gets down on one knee*


Oooooooohhh Kimmy... What do you say? Shall we run away together and be done with the male species for awhile?



(Well, I don't swing that way... but if I did.. you'd be my first pick!!! LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Yes..

You read that last entry right. I am now single. This is the first time in the last four years or so that I've been single.

But that's all fine by me for now. I need a break from being tied to any one person. I need time and space to myself, to better myself and get myself set in life.

Don't get me wrong. A part of me still loves Jeff, and will for a long time-However, he's changed. And, no doubt, I have as well. I can't tolerate things that I used to, or pretend that certain things weren't going on or in existence. I hope he finds what he is looking for in a partner, and that he gets all that he wants out of life and love.

This breakup has really in progress the last couple of months, and the split has been occurring, really, since he made the decision to move back to his mother's house. But, the reason for that decision was solely because of his own actions and decisions.

The last thing he's said to me is that he has concluded that I used him for the duration of our relationship, just to see what I could get without giving. This, because I wouldn't give back the diamond jewelry that he gave me our first Christmas together. "But it was a promissary gift, so you should give it back."

Bullshit.

It was a Christmas gift, our very first year together. It only turned into a 'promise ring set' the following year. (A FULL YEAR LATER, he took the necklace off and then got down and turned it into a declaration gift.)

I have no intentions of giving them to him, even with his attempt to guilt trip me, and the people that I have talked to about it agree with me that I am NOT obliged to do so. (This includes one of my ex-boyfriends, as well.)

I should've used this awhile ago...

Well, I should have taken a clue from this song's lyrics awhile back, instead of dragging out things in my doomed relationship with Jeff.

A Little Too Late
Toby Keith

(chorus)
It’s a little too late
I’m a little too gone,
A little too tired of this hangin’ on
So I’m letting go while I’m still strong enough to
It’s got a little too sad
I’m a little too blue
It’s a little too bad
You were too good to be true
I’m big time over you baby
It’s a little too late

No I don’t want to want to talk about what we can do about us anymore
Only time you and me wastin’ is the time it takes to walk right out that door
Yeah talk about water under the bridge,
You should know by now girl that’s all this is

(chorus)
It’s a little too late,
I’m a little too gone,
A little too tired of just hangin’ on
I’m letting go while I’m still strong enough to
It’s got a little too sad,
I’m a little too blue
It’s a little too bad
You were too good to be true
I’m big time over you baby
It’s a little too late

There was a time,
this heart of mine,
would take you back every time
don’t you know
It’s been two packs of cigarettes
a sleepless night
a nervous wreck, a day ago.
Now you ain’t got no business coming around
I’m closing up shop
Shuttin’ us down

(chorus)
It’s a little too late,
I’m a little too gone,
A little too tired of just hangin’ on
I’m letting go while I’m still strong enough to
It’s got a little too sad,
I’m a little too blue
It’s a little too bad
You were too good to be true
I’m big time over you baby
It’s a little too late
I’m big time over you baby,
It’s a little too late

Crystallized in the shower...

"Everyone who makes an appearance in our lives brings out a different aspect of who we are. I only hope that you realize, before it's too late, that I brought out the best in you... and vice versa."

--~~- *Me* -~~--

Deadbeat Fathers... Yes, Yes... it's a repost!

Yes, yes...*gasp* it is a repost entry.. but that's okay. I am talking to my best friend through messaging right now, and it came up. So I thought I would repost it, so he could read it without searching through the archives for it...
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First written:

Saturday, March 31, 2007

I just rewatched an episode of Fresh Prince of Bel Aire that hits very close to home. Before you groan about the show, which I love, this is a very serious episode that makes me actually start to cry, especially with the ending scene. Before going any further, here's the episode recap:

Originally aired: Monday May 9, 1994 on NBC

Will's natural father shows up out of the blue. While Will is thrilled Phillip and Viv are suspicious. Spending a few fun days with his father, Will can't see him for what he really is and begins to believe in him again. After having a few fun times with Will his father has to hit the road again and promises h e will be back for Will to go with him. When he leaves without Will, Will realizes that his uncle Phil is the real man in his life.



The script from the final scene that I found thankfully on Google that really makes it hit home because it is EXACTLY how I feel and describes my relationship with my own absent father, down the the number of years he was completely out of contact:

Will: Hey, you no what, you ain't got to do nothing, uncle Phil. You kow, ain't like I'm still five years old, you know? Ain't like I'm be sitting every night asking my mom "when's daddy coming home," you know? Who need's 'em? Hey, he wasn't there to teach me how to shoot my first basket, but I learned it, didn't I? And I got pretty damn g ood at it too, didn't I, uncle Phil?
Phil: Yeah, you did.
Will: Got to do my first date without 'em, right? I learned how to ride, I learned how to shave, I learned how to fight without 'em. I had fourteen great birthdays without him; he never even sent me a damn card. THE HELL WITH HIM!! (pause) I didn't need 'em then I won't need 'em now.
Phil: Will,...
Will: No, you know what, uncle Phil? I'm get through college without him, I'm get a great job without him, I'm marry me a beautiful honey and I'm having a whole bunch of kids. I'm be a better father than he ever was. And I sure as hell don't need him for that, 'cause it ain't a DAMN THING HE CAN EVER TEACH ME ABOUT HOW LOVE MY KIDS! (long pause) How come he don't want me, man?


My father was, and is, a complete loser for me. I managed to have him off and on the first few years of my life, when he dropped off the planet it seemed. Fourteen years later, and two or three secretly mailed letters from myself to him during middle school, I got a letter from him saying 'time flies huh ? I always MEANT TO call or write, but didn't have the chance.' Turns out that the same time I lost my father's attention and love, he remarried and two other little girls got the love from my father that was MINE. His wife (now ex) found my letters hidden in his drawer while doing some spur of the moment spring cleaning and told him he needed to contact me. That was six years ago, and our relationship has been sporadic at best. Last time I talked to him, I thought I would call him to tell him I was in a minor accident, and he didn't even ask if I was okay. All he said was 'well you learned a lesson didn't you'?

Yeah, I learned a lesson alright. I don't have my father's love, never have, and never will. My mom's ex fiancee was more of a father to me then my own ever was. My childhood best friend's, (Josh's) father was more of a father to me, and my neighbor's father was.


But why am I denied my own father's love???

The Occasional Survey....

How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
The last person I kissed.. was way back in April(?). And I've done it countless times... Unfortunately that aspect is done with. :(

Are you easily scared by horror movies?
Yes!!! But I LOVE watching them anyways!

Do you still turn to your parents for advice or comfort?
Yes, my mom only. My dad and I aren't that close for that sort of thing.

Have you ever been in a difficult relationship?
Good Lord, YES!

Have you ever punched a tree?
No. But I have put holes in walls before... (don't ask)....and made an ex lose his hearing in one ear for three days..(Here's a tip guys. If you are arguing with your girlfriend, and you've really pissed her off, DON'T tell her to go ahead and slap you!!!! That's all I am saying on the subject!!! :P)

Anyone on your mind?
Yes. Always.

If someone gave you 100 dollars, would you spend or save it?
Save some, spend some.

How much older than you is the last person that kissed you?
um.. 4 years?

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
Yes, quite often I do.

Is it hard for you to get over someone?
I have to go through that right now, and yes, it's very hard.

Have you had alcohol this week?
Nope.

When's the next time you'll see your best friend?
Well, Kimmy lives in Washington, Jeff lives in Nebraska.. and Josh is in Iraq right now. It'll probably be Josh that I see next, and he comes home in September(?).

What were you doing at 9 this morning?
working

Can you admit when you're wrong?
Yes, sometimes very hard though!

Something you do a lot?
Surf the net. And work!

Do you fall for people easily?
Definitely, if there is a connection, I'm falling. Thankfully, from that aspect, I don't connect on that sort of level with many people.

Everything happens for a reason?
Probably. Hard to remember this sometimes though.

What does your last text message read?
"Welcome Jacelyn Claire! 6 lbs 9 oz 6:42 am today!"

What are you listening to right now?
"Straight Tequila Night" by John Anderson

How has the week been?
good god.. loooooong

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
yes

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes. What's with all these kissing questions??

What are you stressed out about?
Tons of things.

Who was your last call from?
Jeff

The last person you held hands with did it mean anything?
Yes.

Would it hurt seeing someone make out with the last person you kiss?
Yes. Hurts to even think about it. But it's inevitable.

Did you speak to your father today?
nope

Have you lost friends in the past years?
Yes.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I don't know.

Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up?
None at all. Lots of myspace emails from J-L and Josh though!! Woohoo!

What's your relationship with the person you last texted?
Kimmy? She's one of my closest friends.

Are you mean?
Not usually. I have to be provoked.

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Yep.

Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
Mostly old.. if you count three years or longer old...

Are you happy with the way life is going?
I suppose. It's slowly getting better in some aspects, dredging along in others.