I should be getting in the shower~Say an hour ago~but not tonight I guess. A few more minutes won't hurt, I need to write. It was payday and errands today, fun fun. I got some boxes of chocolate for my fellow shoe ladies for Christmas.So they are taken care of for the holidays I really had to talk myself into getting one for Pat though. We civilly hate each other's guts to the nth degree. I got Jeff a gift, I hope he likes it or at least pretends to like it in front of me. I'll include the gift receipt just in case.
I better hop in the shower before I run out of hot water. I started it and then HAD to grab my journal and reclaim a percent of my questionable sanity> I will write more before I fall asleep tonight, hopefully. If not, definitely on my first 15 tomorrow.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
November 27, 2007, 11:06p.m.
showered, sleepy and ready for bed once more. I've got a headache behind and above my eyes-ouch!
Jeff is reading the rest of my blog as I write this entry. He asked for the link again when i mention that I've go over eighty posts in it now and that I've been writing almost everyday.
My tail bone hurts from sitting in the folding chair that serves as my desk chair currently. :(
Im just full of complaints tonight I see. Oh well. get them out of my system and forget about them before I fall asleep.
I was surfing my regular sites and I checked to see if Josh had managed to upload any new pictures of himself in the middle of serving for out country. What a pleasant surprise when I saw he did!
I love Jeff. I didn't get to talk to him much tonight, but that's okay. I'll catch up tomorrow. I did get to message with him for a bit and have a good night call, so I will be able to sleep better.
My eyes are drooping, so sleep is coming to steal me away very soon.
Good night.
Jeff is reading the rest of my blog as I write this entry. He asked for the link again when i mention that I've go over eighty posts in it now and that I've been writing almost everyday.
My tail bone hurts from sitting in the folding chair that serves as my desk chair currently. :(
Im just full of complaints tonight I see. Oh well. get them out of my system and forget about them before I fall asleep.
I was surfing my regular sites and I checked to see if Josh had managed to upload any new pictures of himself in the middle of serving for out country. What a pleasant surprise when I saw he did!
I love Jeff. I didn't get to talk to him much tonight, but that's okay. I'll catch up tomorrow. I did get to message with him for a bit and have a good night call, so I will be able to sleep better.
My eyes are drooping, so sleep is coming to steal me away very soon.
Good night.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
November 27, 2007, 9:47 a.m.
How freakin' creepy!
I was half asleep last night, well on my way to la-la land when I heard an extra voice upstairs. It was our next door neighbor (at 11:30 p.m.). Apparently his house was broken into around ten.
He siad he woke up to a light shining on his bed and the silioutte of a figure in his doorway. He leaped out of bed and chased them out of the house. The weird thing-he was supposed to work last night (like most nights). His work shift had just happened to be switched on him at the last minute. If he hadn't have been there, it wouldve been just his pretty young wife and their two small children home alone. Who knows what woul've happened!
The burgurlar apparently jjimmied open the back door on the lowest level and went straight up to their bedroom. One fingerprint was found by the police, but they don't know if anything will come of it.
Needless to say, it was a little while before I fell asleep.
A few more minutes and I have to go back to work. JoAnn has a couple of doctors appointments to day so she isn't here. Just Karen and myself to do all the freight, which shall be interesting, since I am front checking much of the time anymore. Karen works 10-7 and Becky comes in at 4:30-10.
Time to go back, joy, joy!!
I was half asleep last night, well on my way to la-la land when I heard an extra voice upstairs. It was our next door neighbor (at 11:30 p.m.). Apparently his house was broken into around ten.
He siad he woke up to a light shining on his bed and the silioutte of a figure in his doorway. He leaped out of bed and chased them out of the house. The weird thing-he was supposed to work last night (like most nights). His work shift had just happened to be switched on him at the last minute. If he hadn't have been there, it wouldve been just his pretty young wife and their two small children home alone. Who knows what woul've happened!
The burgurlar apparently jjimmied open the back door on the lowest level and went straight up to their bedroom. One fingerprint was found by the police, but they don't know if anything will come of it.
Needless to say, it was a little while before I fell asleep.
A few more minutes and I have to go back to work. JoAnn has a couple of doctors appointments to day so she isn't here. Just Karen and myself to do all the freight, which shall be interesting, since I am front checking much of the time anymore. Karen works 10-7 and Becky comes in at 4:30-10.
Time to go back, joy, joy!!
NOT!!
November 26th, 2007, 11:25 p.m.
I am back for only a few words and then sleep beckons.
I sold ten more CMN balloons today, bring my total to 41.
I love Jeff SO much! His love sustains me and he completes me. We fit together so wonderfully in every way. My fear is that he will find another girl or decide that I do not satisfy him any number of ways. i want to be everything for him and make so very happy. I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Sleep tight, good night.
I sold ten more CMN balloons today, bring my total to 41.
I love Jeff SO much! His love sustains me and he completes me. We fit together so wonderfully in every way. My fear is that he will find another girl or decide that I do not satisfy him any number of ways. i want to be everything for him and make so very happy. I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Sleep tight, good night.
November 26th, 2007, 9:43 p.m.
I didn't realize how behind i was in keeping my blog up to date with my journal! It took me roughly two hours to transfer my blog entries from the past couple of weeks to my mail nlog and from there to my other blogs (myspace, spicepad, and fubar)
Now is shower time. Jeff should be back home by the time I emerge; clean, wet and sleepy. I wonder how many people actually love showers as I do? Maybe I am just really odd, but I love really hot water, lots of steam and getting sleepy and clean... hmmmm....
Write more in a bit... maybe...
Now is shower time. Jeff should be back home by the time I emerge; clean, wet and sleepy. I wonder how many people actually love showers as I do? Maybe I am just really odd, but I love really hot water, lots of steam and getting sleepy and clean... hmmmm....
Write more in a bit... maybe...
Monday, November 26, 2007
November 26, 2007, 8:46 a.m.
On my first fifteen for the day. Already covered a 15 break for a cashier this morning. (and sold two more CMN balloons, bringing my total to 33.)
I only started to sell those balloons yesterday on a whim. I worked 11-8 yesterday, only the first 20 minutes spent in my department. Then I was door greeter for an hour, an hour which held a reminder of how asinine a particular member of management can be-there was a chair at the door, so I sat. Apparently that chair is just there for looks, because when he went by, he got on the walkie (every door greeter has one as well as management) and told Assistant Josh that he needs to tell his door greeting people they cant be sitting down at the door, "hanging out". He could've just came over to me and told me to get up, but he broadcasted it to everyone in earshot of the walkies, and said my name as an example of who dared to sit while on door greeting duties. Argh!!!
But, after my door greeting stint, I took my first fifteen minute break, and then got on the register/ Around 1:30-2, I hear the cashier next to me show off to each CSM that went by how many she had already sold that day (which didn't really look like that much). So I decided to try it, and managed to sell 31 of them between then and when I got off at 8:00 (with an hour lunch in the middle). I think I averaged about five an hour. Theres a contest going in, but I don't think I will sell enough, because I am not an actual cashier.
That wraps up my day yesterday, at least the part worth telling
I didn't sleep well last night at all, I was missing Jeff;s warmth, his loving arms arms holding me close. I got a good morning call from him soon after I woke up this morning! He didn't sleep much last night either. If i could talk him into it, I would pay the $100.00 fee to bring him back here once more. His mom already said (and is) paying for his books and he is getting financial aide that he could get anywhere he went. A dream is a dream I guess.
I must go back to work now, a few minutes late but oh well.
I only started to sell those balloons yesterday on a whim. I worked 11-8 yesterday, only the first 20 minutes spent in my department. Then I was door greeter for an hour, an hour which held a reminder of how asinine a particular member of management can be-there was a chair at the door, so I sat. Apparently that chair is just there for looks, because when he went by, he got on the walkie (every door greeter has one as well as management) and told Assistant Josh that he needs to tell his door greeting people they cant be sitting down at the door, "hanging out". He could've just came over to me and told me to get up, but he broadcasted it to everyone in earshot of the walkies, and said my name as an example of who dared to sit while on door greeting duties. Argh!!!
But, after my door greeting stint, I took my first fifteen minute break, and then got on the register/ Around 1:30-2, I hear the cashier next to me show off to each CSM that went by how many she had already sold that day (which didn't really look like that much). So I decided to try it, and managed to sell 31 of them between then and when I got off at 8:00 (with an hour lunch in the middle). I think I averaged about five an hour. Theres a contest going in, but I don't think I will sell enough, because I am not an actual cashier.
That wraps up my day yesterday, at least the part worth telling
I didn't sleep well last night at all, I was missing Jeff;s warmth, his loving arms arms holding me close. I got a good morning call from him soon after I woke up this morning! He didn't sleep much last night either. If i could talk him into it, I would pay the $100.00 fee to bring him back here once more. His mom already said (and is) paying for his books and he is getting financial aide that he could get anywhere he went. A dream is a dream I guess.
I must go back to work now, a few minutes late but oh well.
November 25th, 2007, 10:35 p.m.
Jeff left today :( We had such a wonderful time together.
He arrived in town on Wednesday, while I was at work. He came over shortly after I got off. It was sooooo wonderful to kiss him again and be in his arms once more.
We went over to Kirk and Marsha's that evening, and did the usual dinner and game routing, thought I didn't participate in the game (Last Word). I was tired and just wanted to sit back and relax and watch.
Thanksgiving day was wonderful as well. We ate around two o'clock in the afternoon and then played two games of scrabble with mom and Leon. I almost own the first game, but lost both in the end. Leon, Jeff and I played monopoly after that, Jeff TOTALLY owned us on that one! I didn't realize he was a Monopoly tycoon! I definitely want to challenge him to a rematch!
Then it was about 8:30-9:00 p.m., so we came downstairs and called it an early night because I had to go to work from 6 a.m.-3 p.m. on Friday for Blitz (Black Friday).
After I got off of work, we went over to K & M's again and had dinner and watched a movie called "The Holiday". I absolutely LOVED it!! The guys kept making commentary comments throughout it. It was a definite "chick flick".
Saturday was a wonderful leisure day. We slept in and went to the mall and went disc golfing with K&M. Afterwards, Jeff helped Kirk hang lights outside and I watched Marsha finish sewing the tree skirt. Then we came home and he was such a wonderful boyfriend helping me hand the mirrors in the living room. (he helped me with the hanging the mirrors in my bedroom on Wednesday).
Then, we watched the movie "Accepted". Afterwards I took a shower while he played his new Zelda DS game.
I love that man with all of my heart. I loved falling asleep in his arms, being held there all night long, and waking up there each morning.
He went back to his mom's today after I went to work and Kirk and him played another game of disc golf. There he will reside at night once more. I am back here all alone, but loving him, missing him, always thinking of him and counting down the days until I can see him again.
Now I must say goodnight. Tomorrow I shall recap todays highlights.
Seana
He arrived in town on Wednesday, while I was at work. He came over shortly after I got off. It was sooooo wonderful to kiss him again and be in his arms once more.
We went over to Kirk and Marsha's that evening, and did the usual dinner and game routing, thought I didn't participate in the game (Last Word). I was tired and just wanted to sit back and relax and watch.
Thanksgiving day was wonderful as well. We ate around two o'clock in the afternoon and then played two games of scrabble with mom and Leon. I almost own the first game, but lost both in the end. Leon, Jeff and I played monopoly after that, Jeff TOTALLY owned us on that one! I didn't realize he was a Monopoly tycoon! I definitely want to challenge him to a rematch!
Then it was about 8:30-9:00 p.m., so we came downstairs and called it an early night because I had to go to work from 6 a.m.-3 p.m. on Friday for Blitz (Black Friday).
After I got off of work, we went over to K & M's again and had dinner and watched a movie called "The Holiday". I absolutely LOVED it!! The guys kept making commentary comments throughout it. It was a definite "chick flick".
Saturday was a wonderful leisure day. We slept in and went to the mall and went disc golfing with K&M. Afterwards, Jeff helped Kirk hang lights outside and I watched Marsha finish sewing the tree skirt. Then we came home and he was such a wonderful boyfriend helping me hand the mirrors in the living room. (he helped me with the hanging the mirrors in my bedroom on Wednesday).
Then, we watched the movie "Accepted". Afterwards I took a shower while he played his new Zelda DS game.
I love that man with all of my heart. I loved falling asleep in his arms, being held there all night long, and waking up there each morning.
He went back to his mom's today after I went to work and Kirk and him played another game of disc golf. There he will reside at night once more. I am back here all alone, but loving him, missing him, always thinking of him and counting down the days until I can see him again.
Now I must say goodnight. Tomorrow I shall recap todays highlights.
Seana
November 20, 2007, 10:25 p.m.
In one hour and thirty five minutes I'll be able to say "Jeff arrives today!". How exciting!!!!
(and then I sat down my journal and write in my mind because I was tired to write but to excited to sleep! I wish I had a computer that could read my thoughts!)
(and then I sat down my journal and write in my mind because I was tired to write but to excited to sleep! I wish I had a computer that could read my thoughts!)
November 18th, 2007, 12:13 p.m.
Just got two (very short) messages from Josh. At least I know he has made it longer being safe wherever he is overseas.
later
10:35 p.m.
Here is is again. Another bedtime, another entry. I just spent another day off cleaning my level. It looks pretty darn good if I should say so myself. I took down the folding table from my room and moved my massage chair in from the living room, did bunches of laundry and hung the shelf/sconces up in the bathroom-just to name a few things.
Less then three days and Jeff will be here! YEAH!!! I am almost counting down the hours now, I am so excited!
Ugg. I just noticed the interstate is having work done on it, apparently. It seems like it will be a night thing. Flashy flashy in my bedroom window~~ good thing I cant hear their work in here, what I can hears seems to blend in with the regular traffic noise.
I hope Jeff makes it here safe and sound. I always worry about things like that.
Okay it is louder outside now and very annoying. I think Nyquil is in order if if I hope to sleep at all in the next hour. I cant take very much or I will oversleep in the morning, but I'll take just enough to get me to sleep quickly. It is bedtime in any case, I think I might be able to fall asleep on my own after all.
Sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite!
Seana
later
10:35 p.m.
Here is is again. Another bedtime, another entry. I just spent another day off cleaning my level. It looks pretty darn good if I should say so myself. I took down the folding table from my room and moved my massage chair in from the living room, did bunches of laundry and hung the shelf/sconces up in the bathroom-just to name a few things.
Less then three days and Jeff will be here! YEAH!!! I am almost counting down the hours now, I am so excited!
Ugg. I just noticed the interstate is having work done on it, apparently. It seems like it will be a night thing. Flashy flashy in my bedroom window~~ good thing I cant hear their work in here, what I can hears seems to blend in with the regular traffic noise.
I hope Jeff makes it here safe and sound. I always worry about things like that.
Okay it is louder outside now and very annoying. I think Nyquil is in order if if I hope to sleep at all in the next hour. I cant take very much or I will oversleep in the morning, but I'll take just enough to get me to sleep quickly. It is bedtime in any case, I think I might be able to fall asleep on my own after all.
Sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite!
Seana
November 18, 2007 9:17 a.m.
I had a very restful sleep. That's usually what happens when I take Nyquil. I only do that when I am getting exhausted from the number of dreams I have/remember each night and the pets (mostly kitties) waking me up every hour to go in and out of the room or getting sick. At any rate, I don't see the harm in taking it when I need sleep, especially in the wintertime when I am sick all the time anyway, so it may even be considered preventative.
Anyway, time to eat a hostess snowball, drinks some Pepsi and get something done.
Anyway, time to eat a hostess snowball, drinks some Pepsi and get something done.
November 17th, 2007, 10:27 p.m.
Now typically my lights out time, it is now time to write a bit more. Between ten and ten thirty seems to be the common area of time that finds me getting snuggled into my bed with my kitties and puppy.
(Just had my good night call with Jeff :) )
I've had an unsettling feeling over me for the last one/one and a half hours. I cant explain it and I don't know why, but its there, I tried calling mom at work to warn her, but the phone wont let me call Wal-mart and she couldn't answer her cell because she was on the floor.
Batter in light about dead, time for Nyquil sleep.
I'm out
Seana
(Just had my good night call with Jeff :) )
I've had an unsettling feeling over me for the last one/one and a half hours. I cant explain it and I don't know why, but its there, I tried calling mom at work to warn her, but the phone wont let me call Wal-mart and she couldn't answer her cell because she was on the floor.
Batter in light about dead, time for Nyquil sleep.
I'm out
Seana
November 13th, 2007, 10:54 p.m.
One more morning I have to get up at the butt crack of dawn and then I will have a day off. And the day off is payday, yeah!
Almost one week and Jeff will be here and we shall kiss and cuddle and not be out of each other's reach, unless I have to work.
It's a good thing I don't drink Wal-mart's water, because two people I know are both three-four months along! Angie from infants and Stephanie from fabrics/crafts. Yikes, more children. I don't think I would be able to handle a child and be a good mother honestly.
Not much writing for me tonight but I am very tired and have a warm puppy laying across me me as I am writing this and a gray warm kitty on my feet. Midnight is in the other room.
Good night
Almost one week and Jeff will be here and we shall kiss and cuddle and not be out of each other's reach, unless I have to work.
It's a good thing I don't drink Wal-mart's water, because two people I know are both three-four months along! Angie from infants and Stephanie from fabrics/crafts. Yikes, more children. I don't think I would be able to handle a child and be a good mother honestly.
Not much writing for me tonight but I am very tired and have a warm puppy laying across me me as I am writing this and a gray warm kitty on my feet. Midnight is in the other room.
Good night
November 11, 2007-10:28 pm
I seem to have began to create my own bedtime ritual without even trying.
Somewhere around nine o'clock at night I hop into the shower. Then come back out and finish my surfing, talk with Jeff. Then we typically have a good night call. I come to bed with my journal and flashlight to record any final thoughts before becoming to sleepy to write any more. The sleepy process is aided by the darkened room and comfy bedding, don't forget also the puppy curled up tight.
Today was pretty relaxing. I took my sweet ass time cleaning various areas of the basement and making my room livable again. I hung the pictures Marsha gave me up on the wall above the ledge. They look pretty awesome up there if I do say so myself!
I heard a rumor that hit me pretty satisfactorily today.
It seems, according to the rumor mill that the Nazi in a pant suit (Assistant Miranda) was called into the back management office on Friday and told that she needed to lay off on people or else. Apparently she, according to rumor, is on very thin ice and on her way out the door if she doesn't change her leadership ways.
Rock on. If thats true, then someone finally realized that she was treating all of the associates like crap. Now only if they would bring ex-assistant Jeff back... grrrrr....
I miss Jeff. Ten days and I shall be in his arms once more. i need to check my schedule of Thanksgiving week and my requested days off when I work tomorrow.
Okay, sleep time. Time to disappear into dreams and oblivion.
Good night all
Somewhere around nine o'clock at night I hop into the shower. Then come back out and finish my surfing, talk with Jeff. Then we typically have a good night call. I come to bed with my journal and flashlight to record any final thoughts before becoming to sleepy to write any more. The sleepy process is aided by the darkened room and comfy bedding, don't forget also the puppy curled up tight.
Today was pretty relaxing. I took my sweet ass time cleaning various areas of the basement and making my room livable again. I hung the pictures Marsha gave me up on the wall above the ledge. They look pretty awesome up there if I do say so myself!
I heard a rumor that hit me pretty satisfactorily today.
It seems, according to the rumor mill that the Nazi in a pant suit (Assistant Miranda) was called into the back management office on Friday and told that she needed to lay off on people or else. Apparently she, according to rumor, is on very thin ice and on her way out the door if she doesn't change her leadership ways.
Rock on. If thats true, then someone finally realized that she was treating all of the associates like crap. Now only if they would bring ex-assistant Jeff back... grrrrr....
I miss Jeff. Ten days and I shall be in his arms once more. i need to check my schedule of Thanksgiving week and my requested days off when I work tomorrow.
Okay, sleep time. Time to disappear into dreams and oblivion.
Good night all
Friday, November 16, 2007
Something Quirky..
One of those 'what does your birth month say about you' things..
August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .
Sunday, November 11, 2007
November 11, 2007- 12:56 p.m.
I managed to sleep for twelve hours, roughly. Nyquil is lovely that way. I did still dream, but I couldn't tell you about what. That in itself is very helpful because I feel much more restful when I am not running around in my dreams.
I feel okay about writing whatever I want to in here, and transferring it to my blogs because no one but me reads either of them.
Well, its my day off and its already one o'clock in the afternoon. I want to accomplish something, so I think i am going to blog last night's entry and this one, and then go clean something.
Seana
I feel okay about writing whatever I want to in here, and transferring it to my blogs because no one but me reads either of them.
Well, its my day off and its already one o'clock in the afternoon. I want to accomplish something, so I think i am going to blog last night's entry and this one, and then go clean something.
Seana
November 10th, 2007 10:20pm
I guess Lydia was dead on with what she said in class last Thursday. Much to people's inability or unwillingness to accept it.
She asked the class "At the end of the day who can you really count on? Who is always going to be there for you?"
The class had the typical answers, "My mom", "My family," and "My boyfriend/girlfriend".
She then asked, "Who knows whats really going on with you and what you are truly feeling deep down at any given moment?".
Same answers, only a bit more reluctantly.
Then the profound, honest truth came forth from her lips. "the only person you can count on in this world is you. You may say you can count on someone when you need them, but sometimes you will call them because you feel you need to talk and they are busy. You hopefully find people in your life that are there for you 99 percent of the time, but they are rare. Capture them if you find them, because they are a rare breed. The only person who can make sure you are happy and taken care of yourself."
Just thought that was worth jotting down, worthing thinking about for a minute.
Nyquil is making me sleepy.
2nd night without a good night call. I wonder why.
I was in a pretty good mood today at work. I don't know why, I surprised myself with my happy mood.
Well, I got my good night call just now. Thought he didnt realize it was that late (10:40) already. But at least I got one :) He's been pretty distant the last few days... I hope everything is okay......
(Twenty or so minutes later)
I almost drifted off to Nyquil induced sleep, almost being the keyword that , as the saying goes, only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades. Mom came home and flipped my laundry after taking hers out. All fine and dandy, except my carmex had been left in a pocket and was clanging around in the dryer. An awful it makes when that happens! She was just going to let it keep banging around without checking to see what was in there, which meant if i didn't get up to check it, all of it would've evaporated in the heat of the dryer!
Common sense, people, common sense!
Okay maybe I can recapture my sleep once more. I can feel myself getting sleepier with every word that I write. I need to once more hide being my dreams from my reality.
This is Seana signging off for the night, back ot your regularly scheduled programming.
Peace
She asked the class "At the end of the day who can you really count on? Who is always going to be there for you?"
The class had the typical answers, "My mom", "My family," and "My boyfriend/girlfriend".
She then asked, "Who knows whats really going on with you and what you are truly feeling deep down at any given moment?".
Same answers, only a bit more reluctantly.
Then the profound, honest truth came forth from her lips. "the only person you can count on in this world is you. You may say you can count on someone when you need them, but sometimes you will call them because you feel you need to talk and they are busy. You hopefully find people in your life that are there for you 99 percent of the time, but they are rare. Capture them if you find them, because they are a rare breed. The only person who can make sure you are happy and taken care of yourself."
Just thought that was worth jotting down, worthing thinking about for a minute.
Nyquil is making me sleepy.
2nd night without a good night call. I wonder why.
I was in a pretty good mood today at work. I don't know why, I surprised myself with my happy mood.
Well, I got my good night call just now. Thought he didnt realize it was that late (10:40) already. But at least I got one :) He's been pretty distant the last few days... I hope everything is okay......
(Twenty or so minutes later)
I almost drifted off to Nyquil induced sleep, almost being the keyword that , as the saying goes, only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades. Mom came home and flipped my laundry after taking hers out. All fine and dandy, except my carmex had been left in a pocket and was clanging around in the dryer. An awful it makes when that happens! She was just going to let it keep banging around without checking to see what was in there, which meant if i didn't get up to check it, all of it would've evaporated in the heat of the dryer!
Common sense, people, common sense!
Okay maybe I can recapture my sleep once more. I can feel myself getting sleepier with every word that I write. I need to once more hide being my dreams from my reality.
This is Seana signging off for the night, back ot your regularly scheduled programming.
Peace
Saturday, November 10, 2007
November 9th, 2007-10:20 pm
This wont be very long for I want to escape into oblivion say five minutes ago.
I choose my topic for Culture and Technology's seven page paper. What else for me to do then the radio? I started the preliminary research earlier this evening. I haven't yet chosen the topic for my encounters in Humanities seven page paper yet. I was hoping that Jeff could help me narrow it down this evening as well, but to no avail. He had made a large time consuming meal at his moms.(but it sounded yummy!). It is also happy screaming fun time again. meaning his nieces and nephew were visiting again. They are adorable, but can be very loud.
His mom rented him "The Hills Have Eyes II" as well. So no messenger tonight and as of yet, no goodnight call.
Speaking of goodnights, I have the puppy curled up tight next to me and the the kitties close together at the foot of the bed. The light is off (I am writing by flashlight!) and sleep is beckoning me. I need to escape and for as many hours as possible.
Good night.
Seana
I choose my topic for Culture and Technology's seven page paper. What else for me to do then the radio? I started the preliminary research earlier this evening. I haven't yet chosen the topic for my encounters in Humanities seven page paper yet. I was hoping that Jeff could help me narrow it down this evening as well, but to no avail. He had made a large time consuming meal at his moms.(but it sounded yummy!). It is also happy screaming fun time again. meaning his nieces and nephew were visiting again. They are adorable, but can be very loud.
His mom rented him "The Hills Have Eyes II" as well. So no messenger tonight and as of yet, no goodnight call.
Speaking of goodnights, I have the puppy curled up tight next to me and the the kitties close together at the foot of the bed. The light is off (I am writing by flashlight!) and sleep is beckoning me. I need to escape and for as many hours as possible.
Good night.
Seana
November 8th, 2007-11:16pm
Jeff got the okay to come for Thanksgiving! Yeah! He is planning on leaving there the day before Thanksgiving (a week from next Tuesday) and staying here until Sunday. Rock ON! Speak of things rockin', I also found out from JoAnn that she gave me that Saturday off!
Midnight's meowing to come back in, have to pause writing for just a minute...
Earlier I weighted her and somehow she has gone from weighing sixteen and a half pounds to only ten pounds. I hope all is well with her health . She's seemed more alert and happy since we've moved into the house though and no sickly heat is coming from her. I'll just have to keep an eye on her.
Okay now I am really tired and ready to escape into sleep and out of reality for a few hours. I might have to get baby and bring her back into bed if she started up the howling again. Done want her scared and the people in the hours.................
((uuuummmm... I believe I fell asleep in the mid writings above. I believe the end of the thought was "I don't want her scared and the other people in the house awakened by her meowing."))
Midnight's meowing to come back in, have to pause writing for just a minute...
Earlier I weighted her and somehow she has gone from weighing sixteen and a half pounds to only ten pounds. I hope all is well with her health . She's seemed more alert and happy since we've moved into the house though and no sickly heat is coming from her. I'll just have to keep an eye on her.
Okay now I am really tired and ready to escape into sleep and out of reality for a few hours. I might have to get baby and bring her back into bed if she started up the howling again. Done want her scared and the people in the hours.................
((uuuummmm... I believe I fell asleep in the mid writings above. I believe the end of the thought was "I don't want her scared and the other people in the house awakened by her meowing."))
The song that Liz, a friend in high school, dubbed as 'My song'
Meet Virginia Lyrics
Artist(Band):Train
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She doesn't own a dress
Her hair is always a mess,
You catch her stealin' she won't confess
She's Beautiful.
Smokes a pack a day, oh wait,
That's me, but anyway
She doesn't care a thing
About that, hey,
She thinks I'm beautiful
Meet Virginia
She never compromises,
Loves babies and surprises,
wears high heels when
she exercises
Ain't it beautiful
Meet Virginia
Well she wants to be the Queen
Then she thinks about her scene
Pulls her hair back as she screams
"I don't really wanna be the Queen"
Daddy wrestles alligators
Mama works on carborators
Her brother is a fine mediator
For the president
And here she is again on the phone
just like me hates to be alone
we just like to sit home
and rip on the President
Meet Virginia, alright
Well she wants to live her life
Then she thinks about her life
Pulls her hair back, as she screams
"I don't really wanna live this life"
She only drinks coffee at midnight
When the moment is not right
Her timing is quite, unusual
You see her confidence is tragic, but her intuitions magic,
and the shape of her body Unusual
Meet Virgina I can't wait to
Meet Virginia, yeah e yeah hey hey hey
Well she wants to be the queen and
then she thinks about her scene
Well she wants to live her life
then she thinks about her life
Pulls her hair back as she screams
"I don't really wanna be the queen
I, I don't really wanna be the queen
I, I don't really wanna be the queen
I, I don't really wanna live this"
Artist(Band):Train
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Send polyphonic ringtone to your cell phone
She doesn't own a dress
Her hair is always a mess,
You catch her stealin' she won't confess
She's Beautiful.
Smokes a pack a day, oh wait,
That's me, but anyway
She doesn't care a thing
About that, hey,
She thinks I'm beautiful
Meet Virginia
She never compromises,
Loves babies and surprises,
wears high heels when
she exercises
Ain't it beautiful
Meet Virginia
Well she wants to be the Queen
Then she thinks about her scene
Pulls her hair back as she screams
"I don't really wanna be the Queen"
Daddy wrestles alligators
Mama works on carborators
Her brother is a fine mediator
For the president
And here she is again on the phone
just like me hates to be alone
we just like to sit home
and rip on the President
Meet Virginia, alright
Well she wants to live her life
Then she thinks about her life
Pulls her hair back, as she screams
"I don't really wanna live this life"
She only drinks coffee at midnight
When the moment is not right
Her timing is quite, unusual
You see her confidence is tragic, but her intuitions magic,
and the shape of her body Unusual
Meet Virgina I can't wait to
Meet Virginia, yeah e yeah hey hey hey
Well she wants to be the queen and
then she thinks about her scene
Well she wants to live her life
then she thinks about her life
Pulls her hair back as she screams
"I don't really wanna be the queen
I, I don't really wanna be the queen
I, I don't really wanna be the queen
I, I don't really wanna live this"
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Bedtime Once More..
I have started a new process of writing in my journal every thought that I want to record. From that I can choose what I want the rest of the world to see and post it into my full blog (here) and my Fubar and myspace blogs.
Now it is bedtime once more, and I can journal a bit more before I fall asleep. Good night all.
~Seana~
Now it is bedtime once more, and I can journal a bit more before I fall asleep. Good night all.
~Seana~
Morning Thoughts
Later
9:05 A.M.
Can't sleep any longer. I have to take a shower. I've been too exhausted to take one for the last couple of days. Mom wants to leave earlier to stop at a place or two before we go to Cedar Rapids. She's driving. Thank God. I swear its only a matter of time before the idiots on the road involve me in an accident. I haven't felt like driving any faster then 65 lately.
I managed to escape into a peaceful, quiet, no dreaming remembered sleep. At least until he alarm started going off at various intervals. With every 'BAH-BAH-BAH-BAH", the dreams started piling on. In my dream, Jeff and I were in a mall, that was completely decked out for Halloween, although it felt like it was always that way. All the stores were closed, so I don't know what we were doing there. in the dream we kissed and walked side by side cuddling. I remember thinking that I had to get up soon, I didn't want to oversleep because i was going to see him and we were gong to go on a trip. Then I started to wake up and realized that wasn't the case and was depressed. So I threw myself back into the dream before it was completely gone because I needed his touch, his presence, even if it was only the mental version of him. That version if the only one I have of him at the moment that I can be physically near. I've go to hop in the shower now so I am not running late.
~Seana~
9:05 A.M.
Can't sleep any longer. I have to take a shower. I've been too exhausted to take one for the last couple of days. Mom wants to leave earlier to stop at a place or two before we go to Cedar Rapids. She's driving. Thank God. I swear its only a matter of time before the idiots on the road involve me in an accident. I haven't felt like driving any faster then 65 lately.
I managed to escape into a peaceful, quiet, no dreaming remembered sleep. At least until he alarm started going off at various intervals. With every 'BAH-BAH-BAH-BAH", the dreams started piling on. In my dream, Jeff and I were in a mall, that was completely decked out for Halloween, although it felt like it was always that way. All the stores were closed, so I don't know what we were doing there. in the dream we kissed and walked side by side cuddling. I remember thinking that I had to get up soon, I didn't want to oversleep because i was going to see him and we were gong to go on a trip. Then I started to wake up and realized that wasn't the case and was depressed. So I threw myself back into the dream before it was completely gone because I needed his touch, his presence, even if it was only the mental version of him. That version if the only one I have of him at the moment that I can be physically near. I've go to hop in the shower now so I am not running late.
~Seana~
Bedtime..
I can't take any more awake, alert time... I need to escape into blissful, quiet unconsciousness. Now, like five minutes ago.... perhaps hours ago.. Enough of everything. Stop the world and let me off for at least eight hours.
Thank you. Now back to your regularly scheduled programming.
Seana
Thank you. Now back to your regularly scheduled programming.
Seana
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
What I wouldn't give..
to be able to afford a day of pampering... A day to get a new haircut, new coloring, manicure, eyebrow shaping, shopping... the whole works. I want a new look (but still be me)! I want to be able to look my age, to look more like a woman and less like a girl. Just a couple hundred dollars. That's all. just pennies in the bucket compared to what celebrities drop on a single item.
Thats all..
Thats all..
Song that reflects my mood...
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Isn't it weird. Isn't it strange.
Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train
We're both trying to find a place in the sun
We've lived in the shadows, but doesn't everyone
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes
Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain.
You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear though you're screaming so loud
You feel all alone in a faceless crowd
Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes.
Sitting on the side. Waiting for a sign. Hoping that my luck will
change.
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world being different is a sin.
So you don't stand out. And you don't fit in. Weird.
Sitting on the side. Waiting for a sign. Hoping that my luck will
change.
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world if you're different you can't
win.
So you don't stand out and you don't fit in. Weird.
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird
Strange, how we all get a little bit.
Strange, 'cause we're all just a little bit weird sometime
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