what a night.....

oh god, it was so horrible. To see him in that situation, and not be able to do anything about it. Kirk and Marsha are the best friends anyone could ask for, and they came through tonight. I don't know what I would do without them... I hope the morning goes well, and he can walk out of there. I fear the worst however, though they say that it won't be that. What a fucking ambush though.

10,000 dollars, that is messed up. No way that it is that, if anything. maybe in combination of all three, but that isn't right. My head is spinning, so many thoughts, incoherent at best. Need sleep, won't be able to get a good night rest. Need to be up at five, take a shower, be over there at seven and have it at eight. his new job starts tom marrow, wonder how we will deal with that. By his side all the way, that's what it's all about. I love him with all my heart... it and my mind, body, and soul is all his forever and ever. He won't ever have to worry about that. Through good times and bad, i hope this shows through better then what i fear.