It literally feels like...

a eternity since the events that took place this morning. I know now that I was exaggerating on any other day that I said were long and felt like a eternity, because now I truly now know what that phrase means.

After I left here this morning, I went over to Kirk and Marsha's, and waited for them to be ready, then we took off for downtown. (God, it's surreal talk it like it was less then 24 hours ago, it feels like another lifetime) We made it to the courthouse fifteen 'til eight and waited for the hour to come. (...and waited... and waited.....and waited some more). Eight to the court system really means nine to the rest of us apparently. His lot came up about a quarter to ten. We all held our breath when his name was called. The judge stated the charge, told the possible penalty, and as he signed the papers, "You're released on your own recognizance". A weight, so heavy, was partially lifted off my chest as I closed my eyes and said "Thank God". Kirk and Marsha also breathed quiet sighs of relief. We immediately left, and Kirk took Marsha to work while I walked down the block to wait for him to be processed. About forty five minutes later and we were greeting him in the waiting area. It was so nice to have his arm around me and to be receiving his kiss once more. It's a relief that we didn't have to come up with any bond to get him out. There is still a horrible pressure as to what will come to pass in three weeks however. It scares me to death as to what the outcome will be.

We went to BK for lunch and then Kirk dropped us off at my car and we drove back over to Jeff's. We cuddled and talked for about an hour and then I had to leave to go to work. i was supposed to work 12-9, but while we were waiting on him to get out I called JoAnn and told her my appointment was running later then I expected it would have and told her I would make it by one. Which I did.

Jeff had his orientation today for his new job at Target. It sounds like it will be an okay position, working overnights stocking the floor and doing freight. He seems to like what he has heard about it so far. After I got off of work, I got two things of water which was needed for our water cooler and picked up a few things. It's positively freezing again outside, it feels like December instead of April. BRRRR!
I surprised him at his apartment when he got home from the orientation, I didn't tell him that I was there. He called me as soon as he got out to his car to come home, and talked to me all the way and then he saw my car there. I was waiting for him by the stairs. God, I love that man so much!

Some more cuddling followed when we got inside, and we watched 'Fight Club' starring Brad Pitt. That is an absolutely awesome movie!!! It is now one of my favorites. He ordered Papa John's that we ate during it, and afterwards some intense lovin' took place. He is so incredible at everything! Not just in the lovin' department, but in the wonderful things that he says and does all the time. Afterwards, we fell asleep in each others arms on the couch for a bit. That is one feeling that I love out of many that I have when we are together. To wake up, even from just a nap, in his arms is the most wonderful thing I can think of to do. I cant wait until it can be everyday! I want him for all of time, to be there holding me close and being safe in his arms and I want to be there for him as well in every way that he needs.

It is positively freaking me out what will come of all of this. Not just a mild freaking out either, its the kind of freaking out that every time I think about it, my breath catches in my lungs and I cant breathe. He's meeting with the lawyer on his next day off and then we will know more about what might happen.

I best get off line and get some more sleep. I have to be at work at ten, and it is a quarter past four now. I hope he is sleeping well as I type this.

-Seana

(it is really 4:25 when I am finishing this, I don't know why the time stamp is so off!) It says on my screen that I posted it at 3:47.