Morning Thoughts

Later
9:05 A.M.

Can't sleep any longer. I have to take a shower. I've been too exhausted to take one for the last couple of days. Mom wants to leave earlier to stop at a place or two before we go to Cedar Rapids. She's driving. Thank God. I swear its only a matter of time before the idiots on the road involve me in an accident. I haven't felt like driving any faster then 65 lately.

I managed to escape into a peaceful, quiet, no dreaming remembered sleep. At least until he alarm started going off at various intervals. With every 'BAH-BAH-BAH-BAH", the dreams started piling on. In my dream, Jeff and I were in a mall, that was completely decked out for Halloween, although it felt like it was always that way. All the stores were closed, so I don't know what we were doing there. in the dream we kissed and walked side by side cuddling. I remember thinking that I had to get up soon, I didn't want to oversleep because i was going to see him and we were gong to go on a trip. Then I started to wake up and realized that wasn't the case and was depressed. So I threw myself back into the dream before it was completely gone because I needed his touch, his presence, even if it was only the mental version of him. That version if the only one I have of him at the moment that I can be physically near. I've go to hop in the shower now so I am not running late.

~Seana~